Indescribable;;

Wednesday, April 23, 2008: happy 18th, jeannie (:

2006: i got to know you because our parents started talking to each other at the new boarder's orientation.. its so strange how God placed you in my life.. from the moments where we tried to exercise, the walks we had to the oval, sometimes with annie, and not to the beach because your parents didnt give you permission to go to the beach; to the moments we had sneaking around in the middle of the night from my/your room back to your/my room because we spent the whole night talking to each other even though it was past lights out, trapiezing down to the music centre so that we can use the pianos there and hear you practice your singing.. drawing the mei lamppost poster and spying on her and her new found friend that is a boy (heehee), swimming (or rather i swim you float), shopping at karrinyup shopping centre, cam whoring (as usual), the moments we shared out of the boarding house at your old house in east perth, cooking, studying, going for ocf, church... oh! not to forget my mini surprise birthday celebration that you and aliya planned! i think 2006 was our best year ever, despite being confined into the BH, we still managed to find that space to share our troubles, tears, excitement, joy..

2007: i went to uni and you were still stuck in the BH ): it was so sad because i didnt get to see you as much. i got busy with uni, you got busy with yr 12.. i wasnt as much a part of your life as i was in 2006.. but it was a good year nevertheless (: then came geri and joash and we became a quadruplet instead of evil twins!

2008: this year so far has been good, its so good to see you so much more involved in OCF.. and i get to see you more and more because of that! shopping, cam whoring (nothing changed), drawing stupid pictures, dinners at mine and at yours.. playing guitar, telepathic dress sense, laughing at esther, sharing about boy problems, leading our own bs groups.. i see how God has been providing for us and growing us each year whether we're together or seperate, and i'm sure God will be faithful to provide us with more memorable moments this year where He will use both of us to encourage each other and spur each other on to becoming more like Him each day..

happy birthday jeannie (: i hope this will be a very enjoyable day for you.. i love you! (:

a shout of praise.
1:02 AM

Friday, April 18, 2008: i had a glimpse of God's love last night.

incredibly patient, tender, kind, gentle

focussed, unwavering, never changing in magnitude

jealous, strong, powerful.

if only, if only i could learn to love like He does.

A graph of how willing i am to trade my definition of love for God's definition of love

(my utility function is probably theoretically wrong.. i'm so screwed for my micro exam later ): )

"Some things are loved because they are worthy; but some things are worthy because they are loved" - Pastor Ian Pitt-Watson

a shout of praise.
10:13 AM

Thursday, April 17, 2008: some kind of realisation.

it has just painfully occurred to me how incredibly patient our God must be with me because as i read the verse phil 1:6, "Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to the completion until the day of Christ Jesus"...

it seems like there is still a long long LONG long way to go before i become perfect in His sight.

a shout of praise.
1:39 PM

Tuesday, April 15, 2008: little prayers to God.

every week we get an email about the prayer requests from the children at sunday school and with every week's immense lack of time i always just skim through what i thought were childish prayer requests and i just move on to the more important email of the two that i get from shari, ie the lesson plan for the following week.

but strangely this time i took the time to read through each request and i just feel so ignorant to how much love and innocence these children have..

Jason- Pray for my mother and father to become full Christians
Brendan- Pray for my dog to get better and be the normal dog he used to be
Worried about dying
Thankful for my dog not dying
Joy- Pray for more confidence and for more friends. For my brother’s teeth
Worried about my future
Thankful for everything (but not satan)
Joshua O-Pray my grandparents become Christians
Thankful that Jesus died on the cross for us
Hanna- Pray for my grandparents to have a safe trip here
Thankful for all the air and food and water and family
Brienzi- Pray for my Aunt
Worried my Uncle will turn away from God

and these are just some of the prayer requests we got this week.. i wonder if i actually got more self centered as i grew older..

"Then little children were brought to Jesus for Him to place His hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them.
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." When He had placed His hands on them, He went on from there."
-Matthew 19:13-15

a shout of praise.
5:30 PM

Monday, April 14, 2008: a thorn in my side.

"But you, O Israel, my servant,

Jacob, whom I have chosen,

you descendants of Abraham my friend,

I took you from the ends of the earth,

from its farthest corners I called you.

I said, 'You are my servant';

I have chosen you and have not rejected you.

So do not fear, for I am with you;

do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

- Isaiah 41:8-10

a shout of praise.
2:27 PM